||[Oct. 16th, 2004|01:32 am]
The FFX-2 RP Journal
Lately, I've been thinking.
My battles have taught me many things, and I don't mean just the battles against Sin, Seymour, Leblanc, or Vegnagun... but the struggles I had to deal with through the course of my life as... High Summoner.
I hate just saying it or even thinking it. Can I really be called a summoner when I so easily cast away the creatures that I made a specific pact with? Yes, it was hard, but to save my own skin, I did it. In the end, I suppose I was selfish... what if it hadn't worked? The aeons would have been forever lost and we would be hopeless and defenseless against Sin. What then? Would people flock cities simply to see me then? If I had destroyed their world rather than saved it...
I really don't think I'm the saint everyone makes me out to be.
Pulling lightly on my earring, I begin to wonder if perhaps I think too much...